How I am seen by others...
This entry was posted on 8/3/2008 3:28 PM and is filed under uncategorized.
I received a call from my ex-case manager yesterday. She said some very flattering things about me. I am still kinda speechless. She said she looked up to me, that she thought I was a terrific person, intelligent, articulate and that I will make a difference. That I had already made a difference in her life. Partly because she could see herself in me and she didn't want to get where I was. I kinda take that as a complement.
What I find amazing is that even at my worst I influenced someone positively. She met me when I was at my worst, ready to die. The depression was so overwhelming. She came to my apartment which hadn't been cleaned in over a year and saw the depth of my feelings. The kid is only in her mid twenties, young enough to be my granddaughter. She felt she had a lot in common with me, even over the decades.
To me this says that even when I am at my worst, not wanting to be around any one. I need to get out there someone may need to see this to keep them from getting to the same place. And it will help boost my outlook even if I never know that person being with others will automatically help. Others will learn from my experiences and so will I.
